what to do

today is sunday and its about 63 degrees ferrenheit outisde the weather is perrrfect, very couldy outside and a nice breeze, and im not having anything to do with it! nope, i woke up at one this afternoon and stayed home. here is what ensued:

today...

is freekin boring. thanksgiving sucks because i have to stay home with my mom and John and no one comes over; i wanna be out and about with my friends but i'd hate to leave my mom and john alone, id feel nothing but guilt.

so to kill time i'm looking for stuff on the internet that i can say that i want for Christmas. so far i think i one of those American Apperal zip up hoodies would be sweeet (preferably one in black). wait, im gonna check the mail, hopefully my Shipwreck pre order came in...nope, just regular mail...sigh. another something that i really want is Converge-unloved and weeded out; its all of Converge's super rare tracks on a cd. i heard one song and i was blown away, its too bad its only on cd and not LP though.

also, im just gonna put this out cus theres no way i can hide this, i woke up and found out that there was a little spot where i pissed while i was asleep. yeah i wet the bed for the first time in probably ten years-wat!

good morning

good morning Internet world! i had the beeest sleep last night, like ever. right now I'm on the computer in the library downloading records hahahah; o maan I'm probably gonna get shit for this cus I'm emailing them to myself. i just grabbed some sleater-kinney. neutral milk hotel is next.

bye!

bad news

whats wrong with me? school is terrible; it feels like the rs no drive for me. i would set aside an entire weekend to catch up and do work but what I'd really be doing is finding an excuse to not do work. all i did this morning was listen to music while i spaced out in front of an open notebook and a pile of books. I'm connecting more and more to the songs on my ipod, like they were made specifically about me and how i feel; mostly BLACKLISTED.

i don't know whats going to happen next. i already decided that its too late to try to save my grade in English, i don't think I'll be going to that class anymore. the only class that matters, at the moment, is math is math because its easy to me and I'm used to the structure of a math class (take notes, do homework, study for a test, repeat). i just want a job right now. the only thing I'm looking forward to is getting my LPs in the mail that i ordered (menos el oso, abyss (2), and fuck bar culture). fuck, i used to smart.

january

you can get me one of these for my birthday, btw. that'd be pretty rad

wednesday was good

last night was undoubtedly the best Wednesday I've had in a long time. i got to go down to the chain and see set your goals with some of the coolest dudes ever (surprise 'wtf that's tonight!?' shows roooool).

first i had to go to the DMV to go renew my permit (I've been driving for a year now cus that fucker with a lisp failed me). its was no big deal, (i was talking to this fiiine black chick but that got cut short:/ ), went in passed the stupid written test, again, then i went home and was off to Anaheim.

the show was pretty good. I'm not into all of that high maintenance scene bullshit though so that was a downer for me. i couldn't stand all these kids, man. ignorant shit and crazy egos is all i can say, i hate California. fast forward like four hours...i got kicked out by the dumb fucking chain reaction security for stage diving. fuck chain reaction.

going home was probably the coolest part of the day. we talked about the most random stuff. i had one of those moments where reality slaps you in the face and realized that 1/4 of my life is almost gone. I'm gonna be a grown up soon and probably a whole different person than i am now, what's worse is that that grown up isn't gonna know any better; he might not be into the things that I'm into now, ie music, style, types of girls. it was one of those "cherish this shit cus it ain't gonna last forever" moments. what sucks is that everything i just typed is not even close to how it was in my head ten hours ago. i learned to just enjoy the ride; when you riding in a car, you don't have to worry about things as much, they just become trivial. you can't be stressing about school or work cus you can't do anything about it, your in a car until the rides over. driving home just felt soo good. i wanted to call up some friends and just talk but i knew they'd be like, "do you know what time it is?! i have work in at ten, ugh, call me later when my schedule is free."

side note:
o my god the fog going home was maaad hectic. you couldn't see like six feet in front of you, it was awesome. that and talking about scary movies and stuff was just great

ahhh fucking intense!

i just got back from lunch to learn from cody that set your goals is playing at the chain tonight at 7pm! ohh man this changes my entire schedule of plane; now i have can't work on my essay or history paper, nor am i going to go to history at 4 (hahah that shows just what my proprities are)

i just tried to get a hold of mark but he's in class for another hour so i texted xphilx. phil might be able to make it, i know he's bummed to be missing them next month. i have to go to the DMV today to renew my permit; i wonder if i can make it in time to go to the show...

today's tuesday

today i ran into an old friend named alex. i haven't seen him in over a year because we had some stupid fight where i broke his sun glasses and he threw orange juice all over my driveway;i tried to erease him from my life. well i ran into him at shool and we chatted it up for a little. i guess we're cool now, no more "bad blood".

roadtrippin

soo stoked on this. November 17 is set it straight's last show ever and it'd gonna be up in norcal so me and my buddy mark, and others i think, are gonna head up to SF for two days. (such a siiick line up)

I'm gonna have to tell my parents that I'm gonna be spending the night at a friend's house for the weekend (i lie way too much, i promise this is the last big lie ever) so this can happen. i posted on the b9 about the show and our plans. i was looking for a place to crash and i got an offer for this guy Eric aka xworthogx. i said we could give him a ride to the show in Pamela and he said that we could crash in his apartment in SF with his roommate. i told mark, "yo i got a place to crash situated", but i don't think he was too into it. he found his own guy who lives ten minutes from the Phoenix theatre so i guess that's a lot better.

I'm gonna have to save up a shit ton of money for this considering i don't work yet. I've have like twenty or thirty dollars in my paypal from selling my dad's golf clubs on eBay plus my mom gives me thirty dollars every Monday...i think I'll be set.

god i live planning this out, it's so exciting! we're gonna drive up to SF and explore and then hit up the show in petamula. after that, I'm assuming we're gonna be crashing at Mark's guys place then we're gonna head home and back in SCV by Sunday evening. i don't know what the weather's gonna look like but i got so excited that i bought a new Bitter End crew neck from the estore lol

more updates later

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first post

first post so i'll just talk about what's up with me. im new to college and i think im off on a bad start; i'll just assume that i'm going throught the motions. my freinds might be able to hook it up with a job at Noah's Bagels so that's a plus. being single for a year now sucks but now know what kind of people i want to surround myself with.

im pretty fucking stoked on life right now =]